Anyway . . .
The other morning I started strolling through my favorite places and found that Kate at Mommy Monologues had posted an amazing letter called Dear Anxiety. It was so refreshing and empowering. I was jealous with the want of that power, the strength I felt in her words that morning. So, I've summoned up my strength and I'm writing Anxiety a letter of my own. And I think I'm going to make a habit of it. Thank you very much, Kate. I knew you were a smart one.
Dear Anxiety,
You are a small, impotent, ugly thing and I will not give you any more power over my life. Oh, I know you like to try to convince me you are big and bad and going to crush me. But I am better than you. I will not bow down under your cold claws. I will not run and hide in my house when you call.
Anxiety, when you throw yourself at me in the form of newspaper, or television or even other people, I will not back down. I will speak up for myself. I will walk away from the paper. I will turn the TV off. Yes, Anxiety, I am fully aware that I must live in the real world and you are everywhere. But that does not mean that I will succumb to your details, your stories. I will not allow you into my thoughts where you fester and brew and grow. I will not bring you into my bed where I cannot sleep because you mock me. No, anxiety, I will banish you.
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This smile? I will keep. |
Anxiety, I take back my every day life from you. Once again, I hold joy, happiness, gladness, in my hands. I will laugh while my children play in the snow and not worry about the snow collapsing. I will sled with my children and delight in it, not fear for them. I will play because I can. I will not listen to you tell me how we could be hurt. I will lay with them at night and marvel at their sweet faces, their perfect bodies. And I will not hear a word you say about anything. I have listened. I have planned. I have slept with my cell phone next to me, shoes at the ready, baby sling at hand.
I am prepared, but I am no longer a prisoner.
That's awesome! I wasn't aware that *I* could write Anxiety a letter. It's usually Anxiety writting me a letter!!
ReplyDeleteGood for you!! I bet that feels so good to write a letter like that. And when things feel crazy, you always have this to come back to and read!
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you have been fighting the "ick". Buster came down with something this weekend and he is a miserable mess. Nice, considering we leave for vacation in 5 days. Grr.
Anxiety is such a pain in the arse, isn't it? Congrats on confronting it and taking it down!
ReplyDeleteHope everyone is feeling better!
Um...so your letter was waay better than mine! :)
ReplyDeleteI always watch "Criminal Minds" about serial killers & SVU then I hate myself, my husband gets mad at me, because I start seeing those creepy killers & pedophiles everywhere! I like how you said the TV, newspaper, etc wasn't going to own you anymore.
I tweeted this & shared it on facebook!
Yikes! You guys feel better asap!
ReplyDeleteLove this! What a great letter to the stress in your life. I'm going to have to use this in the upcoming months.
ReplyDeleteAnd I left you some Twitter luv. You'd know if you'd check it once in a while...
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